: feel dirt

if you were to draw 
a comparison, would it look 
like mine?

we stare into red, swirl at the stem
scrape at our years, and 
fall fresh into old habits.

i tried just hard enough
to impress [myself into] you
so later, for longer, you'd think of me often and on
purpose.

if i undid all of my firsts
and forgot all of my feelings
i'd never have found another.